Tired....

Faded.....

Lost in this world....

Today is gonna be a special day for everyone... I am sure of it. Within hours, we would soon be having a great deal fun and excitement as we are having a class picnic. It is so wonderful... But tomorrow would be the Subcom camp and I still have the jittery and all sorts of stuff..... My heart is still in the mode whereby it is being covered by the shadows.... I am still not ready for the things that would be happening... I just don't wish to express my innate feelings to anyone yet.... I am really not... I just wanna stay things deep in my heart and walk down the journey of faith... Sometimes, I wished I could have wings and soar through the skies and be carefree... They said being able to live is wonderful...but why do I not have the right answer in my heart... I am getting tired of finding that wonder in life way too long.... I am really sick and tired of everything ....... I wanna stop and rest..... But in this high speed country, stop is no longer an option... and it would never be one again.... The only thing that lies ahead of me would be to continue to walk and walk and walk........ I wished time could stop and never ticks again... I wished the rivers would flow endlessly... I wished stars would continue to shine the path for me.... I wished that I am blessed to have the courage and brave through the obstacles in life..... I am really slipping.. The speed of time is overtaking me soon... I am tired.....................................